19TH MARCH - TRUTH
I AM ENTITLED TO MY OWN TRUTH
As a child I needed to distort my vision of truth in order to survive. When Dad was passed out on the floor from drinking, I held up my mental kaleidoscope and saw that he was napping. How could I have believed otherwise?
Unfortunately the distortion that allowed me to survive in childhood is destroying my adulthood. When I view life through my childhood lens, I don't see people for who they are and I stay in abusive situations.
Today I will put away my old kaleidoscope. I will view my relationships through the eyes of an adult and no the eyes of a frightened child. No longer will I lie to myself or anyone else. Living in fantasy is painful but gradually I am overcoming the obstacles that stand in the way of telling myself the truth.
"Daily Affirmations for the Inner Child" by Rokelle Lerner (1990) p.78