16th January - Faith
I will move ahead when things go wrong.
One of the major challenges of my recovery has been overcoming the negative programming from my childhood. Chaos and catastrophe were all I knew in my dysfunctional family, so I grew up expecting life to turn out badly. A large part of my inner work has been to discard my expectations of catastrophe and replace them with positive expectations.
Yet the hammer blows of life still threaten to break apart the recovery scaffolding I've so carefully erected. When I'm disappointed or feeling lonely, the old tapes begin to play inside my head. "You'll never find happiness" they mock.
Today when reversals happen in my life, I will not take them as evidence of certain doom. Instead I will reaffirm my belief in my own success. i will review how far I have come in my journey toward health and wholeness. Today I will move ahead with optimism and with faith in myself.
"Affirmations for the Inner Child" by Rokelle Lerner (1990, p.16)